Hi friends! I can’t believe it’s been so long since my last post! Before I get back to a regular posting schedule I wanted to catch you up on my life.

We are in the home stretch of completing another year. I want to challenge myself to finish 2020 strong and not wait until the new year to pursue my goals.

Professionally

I want to grow into a better leader. I absolutely love my job. I have been with my company for sixteen years and it’s important to me that I don’t get stagnant and I continue to learn and evolve as our practice grows. I want to continue to help empower my staff as we hit our quarter and annual goals and learn as much as I can to be the best manager I can be.

Relationships

I want to continue to carve out weekly dates with my kids and grow even closer if its possible as we navigate our new family structure of it being just the three of us. My boys and I are very close. We are triangle. Gang gang! With that being said, I am hoping my divorce will be finalized by the end of the year. Being separated but not divorced for so long it has begun to feel as though I walk around all day with this heavy bag of sand and I just need the weight lifted off of me. I need it to be finished. I need it to move on with my life.

The past nineteen months have taught me so many lessons. One of them is being able to be comfortable on my own. It has taken me awhile to get to this point as I had never been single my entire adult life. I’ve grown to find peace with myself and turn down dates because I realize I am just not ready to share my time with anyone else during this season of my life. I’ve learned to take myself out on dates, to find pleasure in small things and to appreciate this time I get to be single. I am a relationship type of person. I know one day I will find love again. I just hope love doesn’t find me for a while so I can truly enjoy this chapter of my life, even the days I feel alone and I hurt, I would choose this life again and again because I know it is far better for me in the long run.

Fitness

I am so happy that the gyms have opened back up! My days always go better when I start them with a workout. Getting my workouts in regularly hasn’t been the challenge for me. My challenge is nutrition. Night snacking is the main culprit. I developed such a sweet tooth during my divorce, I was definitely emotionally eating. My favorite friend being good ol’ Blue Bell vanilla ice cream. Her and I got extremely close. Finally I told that heffa she’s got to go and we broke up. I have a sneaking suspicion we might be one of those off again on again couples but for now we are off!

My best friend/trainer has me eating six small meals a day and my body is responding well to it. I don’t always get my gallon of water in or eat all my meals but I have come a long way from how off track I had gotten! I feel like the extra weight I have carried on me during this time symbolizes pain I felt. I buffered with food to avoid feeling my feelings. Getting back to my regular size will be amazing for my health and confidence but also a direct reflection of my mental state.

Money

I have always been very free with my money. I see money as it comes and it goes, you give and you receive. I never have put myself on a budget. I work hard and may not have an abundance but always have what I need in that moment to get me through. Now that I am a single mom, I need to have an even more abundant money mindset and have big money goals. I want to get better at saving. I want to be more deliberate with my spending and have more awareness of where my money is going each month. I have created a savings goal that I want to have by the end of the year. Wish me luck!

Passion Projects

I have a passion for helping women. I love to help them grow and evolve. I try to be as vulnerable and transparent as possible so that its known I am a flawed, fallible woman who may fall on her face from time to time but always picks herself up off the floor with grace in the morning. I absolutely love learning and spend the majority of my free time working on self development. Last month I started school again. I haven’t been in school since I graduated college at 22. This time around its different though. I’m not in school so I can graduate and get a good job, you know the standard drill. This time around I am in school purely for my own self development, learning how to be a life coach so I can not only help myself better but take the tools I learn and help other women as well. It’s amazing. They consider themselves the Yale of Life Coach schools and they absolutely over deliver. I can’t wait to share more on that as I continue with this journey. It’s going to be amazing and I am so excited about it!

So in a nutshell that is basically what I have going on. I workout, work, spend time with my kids and study. I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way. I love the grind! My final goal for these last three months is to get back to blogging on a regular schedule again. I’ve missed Life with Jeezy!

What are your year end goals?