Catching my stride and how I have been finding my happy
In a previous post I wrote about my feelings regarding the L’s (mom if you’re reading this that means losses!) I have taken repeatedly over over the past couple of years.
I feel like so much negative energy was directed my way and it snowballed. It became one hit after another. I felt as though I was swimming against the tide just trying my best to keep my head above water.
Throughout everything I have never questioned God. Not once. I have hurt more than I could ever describe and I would never wish the pain I have felt on anyone. Through the hardest times I have always remained faithful. I have always trusted the journey. I have always trusted that this is part of God’s plan for me.
I recently had a birthday. I turned 36. After so many L’s I was due for a win and I got exactly that! I received something on my birthday that reminded me how loved I was and more importantly who I was. It was the win I have been needing for so long. I’m not going to share what it was because material things don’t mean much, it was the intention and love behind what I was gifted that woke me up from a proverbial sleep. Sleep is the cousin of death and I am so grateful to have finally woken up.
I had this aha moment. This switch went off inside me. Do you remember in the Lion King when Simba ran away and forgot who he was destined to be out of grief and fear and he had to be reminded of who he was and the destiny he had on his life? I feel like Simba opening my eyes and remembering who I am, my value and all that I have to offer.
I have been given a gift that is far more precious than gold. I have been given the gift to remember my worth. To see my value. To remove the chains off of me that have been holding me down for too long.
I have been stripped and humbled and taken my share of losses. But who doesn’t love a good comeback story? I always root for the underdog and I am doubling down on myself.
I have been planting the seeds and now it is my season to reap the harvest. I am done allowing myself to receive less than I am worth. It is time I remember who I am, what I bring to the table and to stop discounting myself.
I am beyond excited for the next chapter of my life and what my journey brings to me. Thank you to everyone that roots for me and sends me their positive energy daily. I will never forget your love and support during such a trying time in my life.
This new year of my life is going to bring so much love and blessings. I feel it in my spirit.